It hurts

Two days ago was the day i felt her love for me getting less. Never in our relationship have I ever experience her love so weak. Every time she will be there for me wholeheartedly, her presence so strong. But two days ago, when i told her about how i felt, she wasn't paying attention to it. We were on the phone and i couldn't feel her love for me. She went to watch her drama and occasionally sms-ed me. I knew she wasn't paying attention.

Yeah, that was how i treated her when we were still young, and perhaps it's time for me to experience it myself. Maybe she didn't love me less, just that i love her more now. Comparatively( i wonder if we can even compare love), her love seems much lesser to me.

Or perhaps, she is getting comfortable in this relationship and getting a little lazy too. It hurts when i feel her love for me getting lesser.

we need to talk this out someday.

如果没变化,人就不会成长.
如果没起伏,就没生命了.

Olympus XZ-1

I will really like to thank all those who is willing to share the costly present with me to buy for Stella her beautiful XZ-1 camera. All of you make her feel so special and loved. She is really happy to receive this present. She was sobbing when she receive the present, and if blogger allows i will try to upload the videos.

Thank you all once again for making this girl so happy!

Jollie, Anna, Jia ying, Xue Mi, Li qi, Jasmin, Hui Jia, Yong Jian, Da jie, Apple, Xin Yi, Pei Wen, Zhi Hong, Eileen, Jason, Poh Sim, Malikka, Shelby, Rohan, Wen Bin, Zi Ai and Kiah Wee. 

Day One of Work tomorrow

After so long a break, it's time to work and make myself useful. Work will be from 8-5pm and i have to wake up at 6am tomorrow morning. I hope i can learn from this job and despite the dreadful feeling of starting work, I know it's going to be temporary and when my engine gets started, i guess i wouldn't want to stop. Ha-ha...

2 Posts that i will want to complete before the end of next week. Shall stop being lazy to blog.

1. Girl's Present
2. Ah yi's Treat

Hope everyone is doing well in life^^

Without change there will be no growth

hello!

End of Year 1

Yesterday marks the end of a tormentous first year in NUS. Feeling so lost and juggling my workload and life so badly. But anyway, made great friends in my first year and without them, my life would be so much worst.

Firstly, I will like to thank my closest clique of friends, Jollie, Edward, Andre and Celeste. They are the ones who studied with me day and night. They are the one who I eat breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper with. Jollie is the one who will push me real hard in studies. She will call me in the morning, keep calling until I wake up and meet her at Yew Tee. She is selfless in teaching me and sharing her resources. What a great friend to meet in first year. Edward is the shy guy who's face will turn red and often became our target for a joke. He brought so much fun and laughter to our clique with his “butterfly and bee” encounters and his failed singing. Andre is the “brain” of the clique. The smartest of us all aka Prof Chan. Extremely bright and he inevitably became our mentor. He is another selfless guy who puts in more effort in teaching us than studying for his own modules. Celeste is the nicest looking girl in our clique, more of a eye-candy more for. Ha-ha… She is the thoughtful one who made us carrot-cake after she finishes her last paper. Thank you all!

 Next up, my Orion friends, who attended lecture with me and shared with me their resources and teaching me until 1030pm the night before MLE 1101 paper. Special thanks to Xue Zhe, Usha and Jing Xian for the help. Xue Zhe last minute crash-course actually saved me 6 marks in the final. 

I truly feel that one cannot simply excel in Uni without any friends to help out along the way. Those who can I really salute them, but I have yet to know one. So I am really fortunate and thankful for all the great/selfless people I met in the first year of my Uni life. For without all of you, I will very much be screwed in my first year.

Friends aside, my family is my pillar of support during my first year. My mum is extremely loving and made me bread every morning without fail. And whenever I came home late with a grumbling stomach, she will make a bowl of delicious noodles for me. Her love for me is selfless and unbelievable. My dad will leave money for me afraid that I have no money to eat. I haven’t been giving much tuition due to my heavy study load and my savings are kind of running low. Without me asking, he understands my situation and left money for me on the table. He took my financial worries out of my mind during this trying period and I am really grateful for it. My sisters are always supportive and for those who have seen my Facebook will have known about my sister buying tonics for me and Stella. She’s just wonderful. Doing so well being a mother, a wife, a daughter-in-law, a daughter and a sister. Couldn’t have ask for better sisters in my life.

Lastly, my pretty girl who is always there for me. She will take the trouble to come over from NTU just to have dinner and study with me in NUS. She will, along with Jollie, spam my phone in the morning until I wake up and make sure I attend my lectures. She is my study-buddy whenever I am not in school studying. She is an amazing girl who is working so hard to achieve a good GPA and pushing me along too.

Her 22nd Birthday

Her actual birthday was on the 29th April, but this post is coming in so late because of the exam.
Had a really simple celebration with her family with a birthday cake specially bought by her brother Kim.
Can’t wait for her exam to be over and the both of us can have a great day out together.
All the best and good luck for your exam!

Even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do.

I still miss you babe, and I don’t wanna miss a thing.

Marriage

So is Marriage the start of happily-ever-after, or a path to ever-lasting suffering?

Frankly speaking, I don’t think I have the answer to this question because different people have different experience with marriage. Some will have a happily-ever-after, while many will have a broken marriage. Looking at the trend of how many people are divorcing nowadays, it’s evident that people are not happy with their marriage.

How about our future generation? Those who live in broken marriages will find it hard to believe in happily-ever-after because they were brought up in a situation where it is so difficult. They don’t see how it is possible to have a happy marriage and they don’t have the know-how to achieve it. It’s worrisome because Singapore Gen Y and Z will not want to get married and eventually, our country will suffer from low birth rate and social issues(e.g. elderly with no one taking care of them).

It’s really hard even to maintain a relationship, what more a marriage. The responsibility is huge and people tend to shun away from these responsibilities. But for me, I believe there are more joy than sorrow in marriage. At the end of a long hard day, the joy of returning to a place called “home” with your loved ones around you is a blessing. So when the time is right, I will not hesitate to marry the girl of my life.

Yes I know it’s tough, but “ I do”.

R.I.P Wei Liang

Wei liang fought bravely for weeks before finally giving in to fate. He is a friend I remembered for being fun-loving, friendly and have a deep love for gaming, and he is damn good at it too. A friend who loves making fun of me with the rest of the techstore people whenever I drop by to collect some items. The one incident I remember was the day when three of them ( wei liang, yeow wen and danial) tao-pok me at the same time. We have lots of fun and he will definitely be missed by so many of us.

To people who are still chasing cars, it’s time to start chasing dreams because you will never know when is your last day. Life is so fragile and people will leave anytime, but don’t leave with any regrets. And sometimes my worries became so insignificant when comparing to people who need to worry how many days they have left.

R.I.P Wei liang. we will miss you.